I’ve always been the kind of person who didn’t much enjoy physical exercise (other than sex, of course). After practicing yoga daily (okay, 5½ times per week) for 10 months, I needed a long break. 3 months, in fact.
Something I noticed, though, is that exercise mixes poorly with low self-worth and negative self-image, two conditions that I suffer from.
When I see myself as fat, weak, stiff, and just plain ugly, then I use exercise as a form of punishment to whip myself into shape. It’s not a very pleasant experience, and I can’t wait to get it over with.
And when I don’t feel worthy, or when I feel like my worth comes from all kinds of strange things, like how much I’m able to produce or how much money I have or make, then I don’t feel like I’m worth exercising for. I should be producing something. Do more, then perhaps we’ll have time to exercise.
Of course, when this pattern is playing out, when I do feel like I have time to spend on myself, the last thing I want to do is exercise.
Since picking up yoga again, I’ve decided to only do exercise as a way to express love for myself.
I’m still finding my feet in it, but it’s made a big difference. It feels much better now.
I want to know. How YOU experienced this? What have you done?